Everybody has a heart/Everybody has a smile/Let's wrap a bow around each one/And give them away once in awhile.

Woooow I am so exhausted. From doing NOTHING. It's amazing feeling so free. Today I got to wake up at 12:15 and I felt so refreshed. The weather outside was a little dreary, but it felt so good to feel the wind whip through my hair. Haha. 

Another pleasant surprise was receiving two amazing packages from my wonderful parents. One containing my favorite Cheryl & Co. cookies, and the other with bunches of goodies...including my favorite....the singing card! ;) I screamed in excitement --- thanks guys! A huge smile automatically formed across my face. That card is going in the SAVE pile. 

After returning from my ONE class of the day, I came back to a very GREAT surprise. The Build-a-Bear song David is singing for the charity Save the Children LEAKED! It is adorable. Maybe a tad cheesy since, yes, it is aimed for younger children. BUT it stands for everything he believes in and I absolutely love it. Especially the line which is the title of this entry. :)

Tonight I will be watching LOST and continuing my relaxation, before it ends tomorrow. LOL.

Have a great day everyone!

Song of the Day: "Let's Talk About Love" ~ David Archuleta 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLzCh2m4zTY

I will not fall on my sword.

I know I said that I would post everyday, which is the point of my blog, but the last couple of days have been out of control. Not just with school but with thoughts. 

Starting with Friday:

After going to class in the morning, I came back to the apartment and had a talk with my mom about what has been going on in my life. I hadn't talked to her in awhile so it was good to hear her voice. I didn't have to go to practice because I wasn't going to be in Lunar Banquet, so instead I.....STUDIED. bum bum buuum buuuum. Yes. I studied on a Friday evening. Boo. Yesterday I had my first exam in Calc II and tonight I had my first Organic exam. Let's just say that studying was my main priority the last couple of days --- no --- WEEKS. haha. Finally later on in the night I got a pleasant study break --- chillin' with An'del. We talked from 10:30-2:30. Freaking crazy. Talked about everything we could talk about. All I can say is that I have a lot to think about, which is why my mind is spinning out of control. Studying after this conversation was out of the question.

Saturday:

Woke up a little later than I'd hoped, but still got going with my studying. After a couple hours of calculus, I had a short little practice with Anoop, Ami, Achal, and Satu for the wedding we were dancing at that night. Dancing with four people with all the formations we usually have is very interesting. After practice, ran back to the apartment, changed into my outfit, and off we went to Fernbank Museum for the reception. Inside the museum there is a huge life-size dinosaur that wraps around the bottom level. Tables filled in the open spaces below it and a wooden platform area was right in the center ready for us to perform. The wedding was between an Indian man and a Caucasian woman.....so it was perfect! My people! Haha. The dance was really pumping -- it had been awhile since we had performed for an audience! The rush was crazy. Once the wedding was over, I decided it was time for a little relaxation away from studying so Ami and I decided to go see "He's Just Not That Into You". Very cute movie. I recommend it. 

Sunday: 

This was THE study day. I woke up and literally studied ALL DAY LONG. It was a beautiful sight to see. Nothing else of consequence occurred....other than more spinning thoughts.

Monday:

Went to my Orgo class, learning more information that would be on our test THE NEXT DAY. Then I had a couple of hours to review some more for my Calculus exam. Took my test -- it was pretty good -- we will find out tomorrow when I get my test back! AH! Afterward, came back and started studying for Orgo. Neal came over and we went to get some dinner. When we returned it was reactions, mechanisms, and more reactions. It was a never ending process. Missed 24 -- sadness.

Tuesday:

D-DAY. After getting a good night's rest, woke up and went to NBB and Cognition. After eating lunch and getting a call from papa for good luck, I studied for 4 more hours until it was time for the exam. Took exam. It's over. And that's all there is to say. We will see what happens. Practice was crazy because we started learning formations for Dallas. But the formations are freaking AMAZING. Looks hella good. 

NOW:

I am sitting at the kitchen table with Sara while she studies for her Physics and Stats exams which she has tomorrow. Finally after 5 days of insanity, I am free. No Orgo tomorrow morning so I can sleep in until 12:15! :) Maybe watch the 24 I missed. Think about all the thoughts going through my mind. It won't stop.

2009 has just begun.....just begun. Just have to believe. Have faith. And love. Just love. 

Song of the day: "Make You Feel My Love" ~ ADELE

Maybe it's too late now to save me...I'm too tangled.

It's almost 3 am. Why am I still awake? I am not even accomplishing anything now. It's time to hit the sack. I have to wake up in 4 hours to register for summer classes. BLAH. i really don't want to wake up then but I must! My summer hangs on getting into Physics. oh yea. and MCAT. ew.

Today was interesting. Made some awesome recrystallization product in orgo lab. Highlight of the day. NOT.

Practice was hilarious. I didn't have to actually dance because they were preparing stuff for Lunar Banquet....I'm not going anymore because there is also a wedding at that time that Anoop signed us up for and we are gonna make $$$$. Plus it's going to help me get more study time in for my exams. AH. so stressed. But dancing to Chinese music and watching Tiff, Rosie, and John try to conquer Chinese dance, was tip top. Totally worth it.

David's archurandomness made me exceptionally happy today. :)

Okay really time to go to bed. Otherwise I'll miss getting my classes. Plus long day of studying ahead. :(

Song for the day: "Twisted" ~ Carrie Underwood

Take a breath, just take a seat, you're falling apart and tearing at the seams.

Not in a good mood today. Really not. Not sure why. Something just doesn't seem right. 

For a couple of minutes I was happy when I heard David sing a snippet of "I'm Yours". Totally mindblasting. But after those minutes, the happiness faded.

Last night I watched a movie in which a couple creates a "manifesto". A set of rules in which they try to follow, rules they create based on how they act toward one another, others, and the world. Maybe I should make my own manifesto....rules I should follow. But is it really necessary? I feel like I am following the rules....maybe that's why time is flying. Yep, brought time up again. 

Song of the day: "Heaven Forbid" - The Fray

It never crossed/my mind at all/that's what I tell myself.

Wow. What a day it's been. I don't really know why I am saying that though because I feel like I haven't accomplished anything. Woke up earlier than I'd hoped, went to my two classes, and then tried to study as much as I could for my upcoming exams. Had practice where we began perfecting Anoop's dance. It's a really fun song, I am excited to perform it. Now I am back in the apartment and taking a break. I really should be studying more orgo...but can't get myself to do so at the moment. 

Have you ever felt like time is flying by....and you aren't really doing anything worth while? Or you feel like you just follow this routine and nothing is coming of it? There is no excitement. Nothing you really want to wake up for in the morning. I want that something. I want to figure out what the freak it is. Care to help? 

This weekend is Lunar Banquet and I am reallllllly excited for it. I didn't get to go last year because I got really sick right before and I had to get better for R2B2. Finally a year has flown by (time flying again), and it's my time to have some Asian fun! Haha. Tiff has put in a lot of hard work for the event, and I know he is going to pull it off with flying colors. We got finale....an Indian dance group....for the Chinese New Year. How hilarious is that!? 

I want time to stop. But at the same time I don't want it to....then I could continue running away from whatever I'm trying to run away from. I feel like I've lost my purpose. Maybe I'm just confused. Who knows. But I need some help. Help me.

Thanks

What a beautiful mess this is...

It's been awhile. I know. More like a year. 

I have no good reason for why this is - I usually start off with a grand idea of starting something new and sticking with it, but after a couple of months I completely forget about that new thing and move onto something else bigger and better. Well, guess what...I'm BACK! 

This is something I realized I desperately need to do...write down my thoughts and let others read them if they care to do so. The last year flew by very quickly and its time for another. 

Who cares to join me? 

I am interested in what everyone hopes to accomplish this year....so let me know. 

What I hope to accomplish at this moment in time:

1) pass my upcoming exams

2) kick butt at Lunar Banquet saturday

3) see David Archuleta in concert about 100x (this is a BIG dream LOL)